Month: September 2015

Giving birth… the act of creation!

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There are moments that are significant markers in life… one of them is having children and feeling a creation stir inside of you for the time,  the rolling and kicking of your own genetic companion as you wait and prepare for that moment of introduction.

For me, entrepreneurism is much the same… you have an idea and you fan the flames of creation watching first the flicker then the flame as the fuel starts to feed itself and carry the momentum to a preconceived date where there is no return and you embark on a new chapter.

I have been blessed with this feeling (both types) many times over and the feeling is both rewarding and scary at the same time.  Scary because you realize you have the sole responsibility for a new creation’s survival,  for introducing it to the world,  for protecting it from aggressive opponents and to watch it soar under it’s own wings.  Exhilarating.  Anyone who has partaken in the act of creation will understand this description and will share in the adoption and feeding of the growing entity.

What do they say about the care and feeding of an elephant?  Sometimes it feels like I have bitten off more than I can chew but I KNOW that this has been percolating for almost a year (maybe years) as I have enjoyed having it all to myself and educating myself on it’s value and learning the speech patterns.    As I have shown people my recent art it has been met with fascination but it is bigger than me and I want others to grasp the significance in their own lives and to feel the impact of learning a language for the first time.

I am thrilled, I am scared to death… I am waiting patiently to see you utter your first words in this language.  So it will be with my Reverse Colouring Book © Art which will hit the airwaves hopefully in November.  I have created a group on Facebook by this name, I have test participants that will give their valuable feedback and I have a plan for how to bring this delivery into the world….

Please stay tuned until all my ducks are in a row and full introductions can be made.  If you are interested in getting in on the ground floor when this is introduced… please contact me through the contact form and mention Reverse Colouring Book © Art!

 

 

Art as Healing

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I want to share my personal story of the art journey that has lead me here….

Life is not easy, I don’t care what station in life you hold… life holds challenges that you are meant to work through and learn a lesson from and hopefully build character.

This quote is close to expressing that with my edit being that ART does.

“He took his pain and turned it into something beautiful. Into something that people connect to. And that’s what good music does. It speaks to you. It changes you.”
― Hannah HarringtonSaving June

So, I took my pain and made something worth sharing and that turned it into beauty instead of an ugly scar that marked my life at age 40.  I lost a son with a sudden jolt and there was no turning back the clock to what was and no barter could restore that precious life back to me.  Everything became slow motion and intense and numb… all at the same time.  It was a state of one step at a time for days, months, and I dare say years; it marked me as a parent who grieves.

I had painted, kind of, before the loss but it was in an attempt to reproduce reality.  Now reality was tainted and glum and I needed something to pull me back into faith in happy tomorrows.  I reached for my paints (actually pastels) in an attempt to do portraiture… it was an exercise in touching what I had lost, in tracing my fingers over the strong jawbone and the intensity of the eyes looking back at me from the paper.  I remember lots of tears and in the end I never felt like I achieved the likeness but what I did do for myself was to hold my own hand through the painful journey.  I woke in the middle of the night with poetry and wrote it down to release it.  I “created” to replace the creation I had lost.

Now, life is drastically different.  I have new coping skills and they are tested often therefore I know I am alive and well.  I have grandchildren that bring sunlight and joy back into the family and I have reason to share hope and story with them.  And, I paint….

The difference in my paint now is that I “let” it talk to me… to guide me.  This is a recent revelation to my art.  We spent a full 6 months in a tiny RV after our home sold and I spent each day with inspired art videos on YouTube each morning and “played” with paint for a couple hours each day.  I took a couple small workshops and started to connect with other artists.  I experimented.  I meditated using a Zentangle process and loved the way it unplugged me and gave me permission to just be with my art.

One day I pulled out some marbled paper that I had created at a workshop by Art Placement (Saskatoon) that I had put away for several months; I took my micron pen and started to track the patterns.  Something “other” guided my pen; I call this my intuitive process but in essence it is my MUSE coming to play.  The reason I know that it is my MUSE is that what started to unfold were feathers, then a headdress and then my OMG moment where I recognized what was being shown to me.

Spirit Walker - 2014

Spirit Walker – 2014

My “Spirit-Walker” was there to teach me that I was not alone and there was more to learn if I just let go and didn’t hold my perfectionism to such high regard.  He also lead me into a exploration of my soul from a place of forgiveness and acceptance and for the first time I felt like I was communicating openly and honestly.

What is the saying… What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger?  Well, I am definitely stronger and more in tune with my journey and accepting of the path that unfolds.  All things happen for a reason that we do not need to know but we do need an avenue to process and allow.  Life is a beautiful thing…

“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.”

Friedrich Nietzsche

The Best in Life unfolds in it's own timing.... Corla McGillivray